total mood change

So, I have been pretty pesimistic lately. I think mainly because I was so stressed out. I felt as if I had to impress everyone. I also worked so much more than I'm used to. I miss family and hate the fact that I can't see them when I want to. I also feel bad I lost touch with so many friends. The homework isn't that bad but it's really hard when I have so much other things to stress over. It begins to work yourself up. But after spring break, I have had time to relax and think about things. I have turned my life around in a sense. I'm very content with life and have set a lot of realistic goals that I'm looking forward to accomplishing. I finally joined the YMCA and I'm about to quit my tanning membership to save some money. The thing I'm most excited for it to start a healthy lifestyle. I don't want just a healthy body but also mind. I want to do well on my homework and relax. I love working out and I'm interested in starting a healthy diet. I can not wait for April 6th. It's the day that I will be losing 65 dollars but gaining a lot more in the long run. I'm going to start my personal trainer with the MaMa Jean's crew. This is going to be a huge test for me. I won't be able to go out because I'm going to be working out three days a week at 7 in the morning. This is going to last for six weeks. Basically, I'm going to be doing this from now till the end of this year. I'm hoping by summer, I'm looking pretty fit. That would be so nice. I'm really self concious about my body. I think because I gained a lot of weight in the past couple of years. I just finally feel content with my life and can't wait for summer. I guess, I finally just realised I make my own decisions in life and I'm happy with life. It's a great feeling.