Significant Change Freewrite

It was on August 17, 2004 that my life changed forever. I honestly grew so much after that day. I wouldn't necessarily say it was for the better or worse but I changed. You are probably wondering what event happened on that day. It was not only the first day of my junior year in high school but also the day my first love left me for good. I'm not talking left me as in broke up with me over something stupid but as in he was shot and killed. It's one of those things that happened out of no where. Our relationship was doing amazing and to have it just end before I even could process it killed something inside of me. I had no idea where to go from there. Of course at first I was a complete mess and didn't know any other way to look at it besides feeling sorry for myself. Feeling sorry for yourself gets old pretty quickly. I decided I was tired of not eating or sleeping and just crying wasn't going to cut it any longer. I then decided to take a new approach and be appreciative and strong. I looked at it as I was blessed for even meeting someone that changed my life so much in the first place. He made me the happiest I ever was for that past year and nothing can change that. I became stronger and more independent. I didn't rely on other people to make me happy. Happiness is up to you. But it wasn't all good obviously that came from that experience. I couldn't trust anything. I did think all things could somehow backfire on me. The experience did hold me back I guess you could say. I did cry because I did lose my boyfriend. But that boy showed me love and there was the chance of finding it again someday. I now am more mature then the girl that fell in love with the boy. I also learned you need to cherish your moments with special people because you never know how long they will be around. Appreciate everything.