decisions, decisions

My newest decision is if I want to have a personal trainer or not. MaMa Jean's had this deal where 12 people, 2 groups of 6, have the chance to meek with a personal trainer three times a week for six weeks. They are competing to see who will lose the most weight. One group of six meets up Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays while the other group meets up Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays. The catch is they meet up at 7:30 A.M. That is VERY early for me. I can't even remember the last time I woke up that early. Nevermind, It was last year to get up for high school. But I don't remember ever getting up that early by choice. I'm a little nervous to throw away $70 dollars by saying I want to do this then skip out. I would be mad at myself for not pushing myself but for also throwing away my money. I really want to do it because I want to lose weight and not feel self concious wearing a bathing suit in the summer. I feel like a personal trainer will actually push me and make me do it. I also think it will be a nice change to get up early in the morning and have the whole day to be alive. The only thing is that basically mean's no going out because I'm not going to want to go out the night before I have to get up at six in the morning. I also will probably be so tired by the night of working out I wont want to do anything. If his sessions were just later in the day, I would gladly join and be sure of my decision. The other thing is that I'm already paying $26 a month for the YMCA. I just joined that gym so that's a lot of money I'm spending in April. I'm also paying rent, electricity, and tanning. I just can not decide but I have to by April 1st, which is about four days away. I don't know why I'm leting myself stress about it. I guess I just know it's going to be a big commitment for me but it's worth it. I just will feel bad when my friends want to go out and I always say no. I hope they understand.