My Mom

So I know pretty much every one think's they have the best mom. Sorry to say but no. It's not only me being biassed because once people meet my mom they instantly agree and tell me they're jealous. She's the type of person who just makes you smile when you talk to her. She taught elementary schoolers from kindergarten through third grade for thirty years. When she goes to Wal Mart or a local sports games, she'll get hugs from students she had twenty years ago to first graders she had just a year ago. That should be an indication of what kind of person she is. She is honestly the nicest, most loyal, and funniest person I have ever met in my entire life. It's no surprise to hear she's my bestfriend. I would seriously back out of so many plans with friends just to watch a movie I've seen a million times just to hang out with my mom. She is so random and I love it. My dad is such a lucky man. She has such a patience, if you can't tell with working with that age of kids for so long. She also is very optimistic with the things she chooses to do. She never complains. She just make's jokes to turn situations around. I hope one day I can be the mom she was because I honestly don't think anyone could be a better person. She is not physical at all. I never got a spanking from her growing up. That just wasn't in her nature. She found it more productive to just sit us down and explain to us why whatever we did was wrong. I think her approach was a lot more meaningful then my dad's swift kick in the butt method. She did way too much for us kids growing up. I don't know how she did it. She would wake up at five in the morning and make us breakfast, take us to school, go to school, teach and do career ladder for about eight hours, go home, get dinner started, make sure we had a ride to soccer practice, do the laundry, do the dishes, and still had time for us. She is seriously a wonder woman in my eyes. I was way too blessed.

Sicky :(

Days like today remind me how much I hate being sick. I'm so lucky that i rarely get sick. When I was younger I pretty much stayed sick. I mean I had bacterial spinal menigitus at just a couple weeks old. I'm kind of surprised I'm still alive but I'm sure that didn't do too much good for my immune system. Well, back to the point. Yesterday I woke up and my eyes were swollen shut. I couldn't even think because my head was just pounding as if someone was taking a hammer to my head. Not to memtion, it was like a waterfall coming out of my nose which is a little disturbing to think about. Basically, I felt horrible. Oh, it gets even better. I work up late and had to hurry to class. I managed to get through my classes even though I couldn't sit in any of my classes without leaving in the middle of the class to go to the bathroom and blow my nose. It was horribly annoying. The same thing kept running through my mind all day. What am I going to do about work? There's no way I can get through the day but I close and I think it's so direspectful to the other closers to just call in and make them take care of everything. That's not fair and I don't like it when other people do it to me. So I drag my butt to work and it just stinks because I'm a cashier. It would be different if I stocked shelves but no I'm over the counter touching people's food and talking to them. I promise I got the comment "You should try going to a health food store" about 20 times and not once was it funny. It got old about the first time I heard it. I already felt horrible enough and I sure didn't need it rubbed in my face. But long story short, I went to work and stayed there miserably and closed. I got home about nine and I took a shower and straight went to bed. I didn't wake up till about noon today. Good thing I had today off. But it also stinks because it's such a nice day and I can't even enjoy it. Oh, well, things have got to get better I would hope.

Setting Out of Significant Event

If I were going to pick a setting that attaches to my significant event I just wrote about It would take me to about four days later after the event. It was August 21, 2004. It was a beautiful day outside, about 80 degrees. The birds were chirping and the wind was barely boring. It was the perfect day outside for a wedding. This event was actually the complete oposite of a wedding. I went to my boyfriend's funeral. When you looked around all you could see was red eyes of distraught people running around frantically or hugging eachother. It was like looking at clumps of black through my teary eyes. My eyes were pretty swollen by then. The funeral was basically a blur but from what I remember there was about fifty people there I would say. There were all different tones of voices and cries during the service. The seats were wooden with maroon velvit covering them. There was a huge painting done of Wes. I can even remember the songs that were played. The first song was "The Dance" by Tim McGraw. The second song was "Hurt" by Christina Angulera. Last but not least, "Amazing Grace" was played. I remember looking up about that time and seeing Wes' mom dart outside of the funeral home. I didn't blame her because I was about to do the exact same thing. When we got out of the service I then just sat on the green grass with a couple other girls around. Some younger cousin was walking around different cliques I guess you could say with tissues that were well needed. There was so many red faces with red eyes, nose, and cheeks. It seemed as if alll the cliques were all coming together in this time of adversity. It was nice to see because a lot of friends that were angry before had now bandaged up their bond.

Significant Change Freewrite

It was on August 17, 2004 that my life changed forever. I honestly grew so much after that day. I wouldn't necessarily say it was for the better or worse but I changed. You are probably wondering what event happened on that day. It was not only the first day of my junior year in high school but also the day my first love left me for good. I'm not talking left me as in broke up with me over something stupid but as in he was shot and killed. It's one of those things that happened out of no where. Our relationship was doing amazing and to have it just end before I even could process it killed something inside of me. I had no idea where to go from there. Of course at first I was a complete mess and didn't know any other way to look at it besides feeling sorry for myself. Feeling sorry for yourself gets old pretty quickly. I decided I was tired of not eating or sleeping and just crying wasn't going to cut it any longer. I then decided to take a new approach and be appreciative and strong. I looked at it as I was blessed for even meeting someone that changed my life so much in the first place. He made me the happiest I ever was for that past year and nothing can change that. I became stronger and more independent. I didn't rely on other people to make me happy. Happiness is up to you. But it wasn't all good obviously that came from that experience. I couldn't trust anything. I did think all things could somehow backfire on me. The experience did hold me back I guess you could say. I did cry because I did lose my boyfriend. But that boy showed me love and there was the chance of finding it again someday. I now am more mature then the girl that fell in love with the boy. I also learned you need to cherish your moments with special people because you never know how long they will be around. Appreciate everything.

It Hit Me

Today I woke up in a crabby mood. I was in this mood because I hate going to work on Sunday's. It's not that I don't like work because I love my job. The reason I hate going is because I get left by myself on the register for seven straight hours. In my opinion, it's not fair that I never get a break and everyone else can do whatever just because I'm the new girl. I'm not even that new. I have been there since the middle of July. But anyway, the point is that I shouldn't be stuck with that job. I look around and I see Will, this guy I work with on the computer creeping on facebook and I see the other girl just sitting around laughing. Looking around and seeing that the other employees aren't doing anything doesn't help my situation at all. I get even more pissy. So as I'm standing there ringing up customers at work, I hear a familiar voice and look up to see who it was. It was my dad! I was shocked to say the least. I haven't talked to him in a couple weeks I'd say. He was in town because he coaches an indoor soccer league. But it hit me all at once. I just started tearing up. I am an emotional person I have to admit but I'm never the one to just start crying. It surprised me probably as much as it surprised the other customers I was ringing up. It's just crazy how something that happens so fast can change your mood for the whole day and turn you into a emotional roller coaster. I was no longer mad but in an excited, shocked, crying, but happy mood. After he got there he told me to go straight home after work and we would get a bite to eat. I was pretty excited when he took me to my favorite restaurant, Olive Garden. We just shared and appetizer and caught up with each other's life. It was nice.

What's in the Way?

What's in the way? So many things are popping up in my mind. First off I would say that my choices are holding my back from success. I don't mean I'm failing but I could do better. I hurt myself when I can't say no. For example, I tell myself that when I get off work I'm just going to go home, take a shower, and do my homework but then when my friends ask me to go the club, I go along with them. That was a bad choice. I had a sociology test first thing in the morning I could barely function for. My eyes wouldn't stay open and my head was pounding. Then it gets better. I totally forgot I had a speech due the next hour. I did okay but I had no energy. The only comment I got was that I was monotone. What a surprise? The worst part is that this is almost an everyday thing. I did good for two weeks about saying "no." It's a totally different life when you get sleep. It's nice waking up in the morning and not feeling like someone is pounding a hammer on your head. It's nice feeling like you are going to be productive for the day. I'm busy enough so I don't know why I make these dumb desicions. Another example: I go to school from 10 to 2 then I go straight to work till closing time at work (8 P.M.) I get stressed because I'm always on the go. There's no reason for me to make life more tough. When I do usually get a break I try to work out. That's stressful also. I feel fat all the time and I have to stress when finding time to fit in my workout schedule. I wish I had one day completely off from school and work. I would just get a good night's sleep and then sleep in. I would work out first thing in the morning then go run errands such as laundry. Then I could pay my rent and clean my room. I could even catch up with old friends I havn't had time for. There are so many possibilities of things I could get done if I just wouldn't go out.

Home At Last

After waiting and waiting, I finally got to go see family in Waynesville today. I havn't seen my family since Christmas and it was starting to take it's toll on me. I missed them so much so I decided to randomly drive home after I closed at work last night. I got home around midnight and only got to stay till about 7p.m. but it was well worth it. My parents were so excited. My mom woke me up around 10 a.m. and I got ready and we took a walk around my home with the pets. It was nice catching up. Then we decided we wanted to take a walk down to the park so we walked by the river there. We then went to the library and got on the computer and booked a vacation after my spring classes ended and before summer classes started. We are going to Clearwater, Florida. I can't wait for that. Then we ran by my grandparents house for about an hour. They were so excited to see me. My dad called soon after that and we met him at Cracker Barrel and got some lunch. It was delcious and it was nice to talk to him also. Then we went home and I finally took a shower and just layed around. It was the most relaxing day I have had in a while. After I wasted time at the house I realized I would need to head back to Springfield but I still had wanted to work out a little. My mom agreed and we were off two the fitness center. We did the aerobics class. So much for my shower, right. After that we ran by Wal Mart to get the necessaries before I left. All I got was a strawberry banana Naked smoothie and I was on my way. Today was awesome! :)