Free writing in class

I am good at quite a few things, it’s just hard plucking them off the top of my head. I am definatly good at eating for sure. I could eat consecutively for hours. I am good at making people laugh if I do say so myself. I feel that since I’m weird and different people enjoy that about me. I’m good at NOT procrastinating aka good at getting things done on time. I am never late for anything. I am good at thinking about others feelings. I am good about calling my mom every day. I’m good at saving money. I’m the biggest tightwad you will ever meet. I’m good at being lazy. I can let dishes pile up for days without touching them until I smell rotten milk. I’m good at realizing what’s important to me and putting priorities first. I’m good at shooting the basketball just not running. I think I’m pretty good at soccer, just a little slow but in soccer if you know the game you don’t necessarily need the speed. I’m good at shoot I’m running out of things to say. If it was finding things I’m bad at I could go on and on. But I guess I could say I am good at reading. I’m decent at writing. I WISH I was good at keeping in touch but honestly I’m not the best. I’m starting to be good at standing up for myself which used to be very no scratch that extremely hard for me. I’m good with computers. I can usually figure out what is wrong with my computer any time it decides to go nuts. I’m good at helping my grandma out by doing things with her and helping her get aound. I’m good at making myself work out. This is a recent skill for me also because I could never get my self to actually get up and run a mile. I’m good about managing my time. I can always find a way to go to work and school. Good listener.

Free writing in class

I am good at quite a few things, it’s just hard plucking them off the top of my head. I am definatly good at eating for sure. I could eat consecutively for hours. I am good at making people laugh if I do say so myself. I feel that since I’m weird and different people enjoy that about me. I’m good at NOT procrastinating aka good at getting things done on time. I am never late for anything. I am good at thinking about others feelings. I am good about calling my mom every day. I’m good at saving money. I’m the biggest tightwad you will ever meet. I’m good at being lazy. I can let dishes pile up for days without touching them until I smell rotten milk. I’m good at realizing what’s important to me and putting priorities first. I’m good at shooting the basketball just not running. I think I’m pretty good at soccer, just a little slow but in soccer if you know the game you don’t necessarily need the speed. I’m good at shoot I’m running out of things to say. If it was finding things I’m bad at I could go on and on. But I guess I could say I am good at reading. I’m decent at writing. I WISH I was good at keeping in touch but honestly I’m not the best. I’m starting to be good at standing up for myself which used to be very no scratch that extremely hard for me. I’m good with computers. I can usually figure out what is wrong with my computer any time it decides to go nuts. I’m good at helping my grandma out by doing things with her and helping her get aound. I’m good at making myself work out. This is a recent skill for me also because I could never get my self to actually get up and run a mile. I’m good about managing my time. I can always find a way to go to work and school. Good listener.

My Job

I spend most of my precious time at my job. I work at Mama Jean’s Natural Market ,which I’m sure most of you have never heard of. It’s a health food store my Aunt owns. I’m a cashier there where I work about 30 hours a week. When I first started working there I was so CONFUSED. I had never heard of half the things they sold. What are ear candles I asked myself as they showed me around. The people that work there I loved from the getgo. The employees there are very..different. They are also the nicest people I have ever met. They are so open and intouch with there selves. They are so funny too. I have now been working at MaMa Jean’s since July and it’s by far my favorite job. It has taught me so much about my body. I have became a much more healthier and self concious eater. I now try foods I would have never tried. It’s just a really interesting store with very interesting people that come in there to shop and that work there. The customers there are probably the nicest people I have met in springfield, also some of the oddest. Even though Their food is a little over priced in my eyes, it’s good stuff. I don’t know enough about organic food to preech about it, but I do believe organic is the way to go. I’m actually going into work right when I get out of school. I normally get two days off a week. I also normally close, working shifts 3 pm to 8pm. I don’t even mind going to work though since I always learn something new and have fun. I spend a lot of money there, but It’s supporting the business that pays me so why not? Most people who go in there for the first time immidiatly have a love or hate for it. But it seems to the people that come in there continue to come.

Mexico

If I could be somewhere other then this classroom, my top pick would be Cancun, Mexico. I don’t even care if there are wars going on there or all that other drama. I have wanted to go there for about three years straight. I want to get the all inclusive package where they pay for your hotel, flight, food, and rides to and from places. It’s a little expensive but you can find really good deals if you search early. Me and my mom found a flight for only 1500 for two people and four days and four nights. That’s a pretty good deal, considering the place we would be staying at. I want to tan my body and work out while I’m there. It might either make me be really inspired to work out and be healthy or the complete opposite with the free, good food. I also want to use my spanish skills I have learned over the past three years and communicate with the people there. I hate not knowing what people are saying to me or what’s going on. I also wouldn’t mind drinking with my mom. It would be fun. I definitely don’t want to get completely wasted with her and run through the beach naked with her but you know have a nice glass of wine to give the vacation feel. Actually, now that I think about it, going vacation anywhere with a beach would nice. I love to travel but I have never been outside the United States so that would be a nice change to broaden my horizon. I want to hear good music, smell good food, get splashed by ocean waves, and soak in the sun. I
can see all shapes, sizes, and colors of people running and laughing on the sandy beach side. I see people riding the waves and making sand castles. I see the older drunks laughing behind their tall glass of Carona’s. I see not a cloud in the sky during the day, just bright blue. The water is a crystal blue color. I see so many colorful sea shells that I can’t even count. At night I see the pink and orange mixture in the sky. It is just beautiful. I see my mom smile at me as she is so happy we could finally go. I see good food lined up on the buffet. That may not be a good thing. I also see sweat dripping off people’s hot bodies. I see colorful hats.
I hear laughter and screams of happiness. I hear all langauges speaking. I hear the sounds of Mexican singers and instrument players. I hear the waves crashing. I hear the air conditioner in our nice hotel. I hear my mom talking to my dad on the phone. I hear the sound of my ipod as I jog down the beach. I hear the sound of sea gulls.
I can taste the saltiness of the tortilla chips. I can taste the fresh pineapple in the morning. I can taste the salt from the ocean. I can taste the tamales, enchiladas, and quesadillas we got. I can taste the fresh salad me and my mom made up.
I can smell the fresh mexican food cooking up. I can smell the perfumes of people in the restaraunt. I can smell the scent of sunscreen and tanning oild as I am walking along the beach. I can smell sweet desserts cooking as I walk down the street.
I can feel the sand in between my toes. I can feel the sweat dripping down my body. I can feel the smooth wind blow past me. I feel the waves flow to and from me. I feel the massuse massage my body. I can feel the water as I shower and risne my body. I can feel the soothe chapstick I put on to save my lips.

Annoyances

Tonight is one of those nights where every little thing annoys me. Why is everything due tomorrow? Is that woodpecker outside ever going to stop banging it's head. It must have a massive head ache. Is she really just going to leave here stuff laying here. Where is my money going? When am I going to get my clothes ready to bring home. What am I going to do if I can't find my flashdrive? Why don't I ever have time to sleep? I just feel so annoyed and stressed out tonight. I just need a day off from school and work to just lay around, catch up on sleep, clean my room, study for classes, and just relax. Right now I just have so much built up inside and I can't seem to calm it. I don't mean to get annoyed so easily is because I just get so irritated when I'm stressed. I can't think straight because I just have people talking in my ear. The biggest annoyance to me is my weight. First semester I drank my life away basically. I stayed up all night then I would just take power naps to get me by. I went to cheddars about four days out of the week. We ate out about every day atleast one meal. This semester I have stopped drinking. I don't go out to eat. I don't eat anything made with white flour and I don't drink soda's. When go to the grocery store I get fiber cereal, i get apples, oranges, bananas, lettuce, lean cuisine, oatmeal, and grilled chicken breasts. I now work out 5 times a week and sleep regularily. I have not lost weight. I'm also not able to see any changes. That is definately my biggest annoyance of the past months. Another annoyance is that I never get to see my family. Hopefully, with this nice weather my mood will become nicer. I can always hope for this annoying storm to pass.

Missing Home

Day’s like today are what makes me miss home. The temperature is about 75 degrees and the wind is there but calm. I woke up to the bright lighting and birds chirping. I instantly knew today was going to be a good day. Warm weather honestly changes my mood. The only downfall is that it makes me miss home terribly. It reminds me of just last year when I was able to sit outside with my retired parents before I went to school and they drank there coffee on the porch. We would watch our dog run into the house while trying to catch squirells. We would watch our cats roll around in the grass. We had quite a bit to look at considering we have 88 acres of land. I loved it. I loved that we seemed extinct to the other world. My parents would drink there coffee and read the newspaper. We wouldn't even have to talk but I could just feel the warmth. This weather also reminds me of my days playing soccer. I miss soccer more then anything from growing up and high school. I had the best memories from soccer. I always smile when i look back on the past. I miss my dad being my soccer coach until I graduated. I even miss the feeling as if we were going to die after running our three miles on the track. I never thought I would ever miss that. So many memories are flown at me on days like this. It makes me appreciate all my friends but also miss them at the same time. I feel like I can finally relax and think. It's crazy how stressed and emotionless I felt on these cold, winter days. I honestly just felt like I was constantly busy when really it was just a mind set because I am just as busy today but have a different out look. For example, today I am going to class from 10 till 2, then I am going to work out, then I am going straight from OTC to my job at Mama Jeans until we close. Sure, I will be busy but I'm being obtimistic about it. I love this warm weather. It's crazy how something so bland as the temperature can affect your whole outlook on life and give you a blast from the past

The Future?

Thinking about the future is probably the biggest stressor in my life. Not only does it scare me but it irritates me. I know it's a little early to be worrying about what job I want when I graduate, where I'm going to live, who I'm going to marry and things like that but I can't help it. I stress all the time. I stress less now then I did growing up but it's still a little much. The biggest stresser in my life right now is definitely what I'm going to major in. When I was little that question was simple. I always told everyone I wanted to be a cat. Now that reality kicks in I realise being a cat wont quite cut it. I have switched so many times in just my first semester. I understand most people switch atleast one time through out college but I just don't want to waste my time and money on classes that wont go towards acheiving my major. I went from a reading specialist to a high school language teacher to a special education teacher to an engineer to a secretary and now to an elementary school teacher. I'm so confused because I have always changed my mind. I want to be a teacher because I like kids and grading. I also think a secretary job would be perfect because I love doing busy work such as taking notes. All I really know is I want to major in something where I am able to find a job in Waynesville because I think it was the perfect area to raise a family. I know most probably think that is a dumb decision to base my education off of but it's a major part in my life. My dad is the president of the school board in Waynesville and my mom spent her 30 years of teaching there so I think that will help me out a little. I'm very lucky for that. I'm sure I will probably change my mind again but I'm hoping whatever I decide, I am 100% confident in my choice.
The other big stresser of my future is "Who will I marry?" "When will I find him?" "What will he be like?" I'm sure it doesn't help that I'm a huge romantic. I'm into the head over heels falling in love kind of thing. I don't care as much about like a big wedding. But I just want to be happy and in love. I worry they won't agree with a lot of my decisions. I worry they wont want children. There's so many things to worry about even though worrying does nothing to help you. I need to take a deep breath and let God lead me on my path. I trust everything will fall into place but it's tough for me not to worry. I should'nt even be thinking about these things for another couple years but It's me so I have to stress. I wouldn't be surprised if all my hair falls out by next year. Well, atleast then I'm sure if I find someone they aren't dating me for my good looks and great hair.
Anyways, I hope everything works out and I get the future I've always dreamed of. :)