awesome day

Today has been the absolute best day that I have had in a long time. It was a definite well needed day off. I have been so stressed and over worked. I'm not just overworked at Mama Jeans but also school. Today was perfect. I woke up from a good night's sleep at eight this morning. I instantly had to get up and begin my day. I went to my first day with my personal trainer at 8:30. His work out was tough but good. After the work out, I was rejuvenated. I got straight to my homework. I got a lot done. That was a huge weight taken off my shoulders. After I did most of my homework, I just waited for my room mate to get up so we could go to the YMCA and work out and go into the steam room. We went to the gym at about one. By the time we left there, my mom called and said she was coming to Springfield. My mom and I are extremely close so I was ecstatic. We had a great day. We did some jobs then went and ate at my favorite restaurant, Cheddars. We ordered our usuals and it was good as usual. Then we went by the mall and I got her some moisturizer from Clinique and she got me some spray from Victoria Secret. Then we went to Walmart and we got groceries. After we got groceries, we did some of my laundry. I got a lot done and it was great. I feel like I finally achieved all my goals. It put me in a great mood. It was a great visit with my mom. I can't wait to go home Saturday for Easter and see my family for two days. I am about to finish the rest of my homework and practice my speech. I'm also excited to see my boyfriend. It's been a couple days since we have seen each other and I miss him. I just feel like I finally got my life put back together today and it feels awesome.

Day One

The day finally came. It was time for my first work out with Ernie, my personal trainer. I went to bed at midnight last night so I would be able to wake up easy at eight in the morning. I did well. I got up at eight, changed, and got ready for my work out. I was a little sad to see that my time of the month started but luckily I wasn't cramping too horribly. I took some midol. I then realized I had never drove to his gym before. I was praying that I remembered the directions given to me. I did. I took a right on Enterprise and looked up to see a huge sign. It read Ernie's Gym. The first step of getting up on time was completed. The second step of getting to the place on time was completed also. I was up to a good start. I had a warm welcome by Ernie and my favorite employee, Allison. Ernie is very energetic, enthusiastic, and fun. I was excited. We first got measured. We were measured on our chest, hips, and butt. I don't think the measurements were too accurate but that's okay. The whole point is to get healthier and fell better. The work out was not like I had planned but it was good. I thought it would be a cardiovascular sort of work out. It wasn't at all. It was fast pace and didn't have much of a break but it was all strength training and muscle toning. We did a lot of push ups and sit ups. My abs and arms are definitely going to be sore. I felt good afterwards and was glad I still have the whole day to get things done. Normally, I wake up at about eleven. This was a nice feeling. I felt productive. I have already finished most of my homework I have been stressing about. As for the rest of the day, I plan to work out again, tan, practice my speech for public speaking, write another journal, and finish my sociology paper. It will be a busy day but a productive day. I also might meet up with a old friend that goes to Drury. We are going to stop by Hilcrest and watch our high school soccer team play. I'm excited for the day.

stressed out !

Wow! I have been so stressed out. The only thing keeping me sane is the gym. After I get a good work out I am able to relax and calm my nerves. I am not stressed about money or work anymore. I am a little stressed about my weight. I could definitely lose some weight but that is beside the point. The top of my stress list is definitely homework. Homework has consumed my life and I still feel I am not at a point where I can actually relax. I just feel like I can not catch up on my homework and so much is due this week. I have homework to do in every single class. I could go through my schedule and pick out what is due in each class to make life easier. In sociology, I have a 15 page paper due on Friday. I only have three pages left but those pages are being done last for a reason. They require a lot of thought and I just have not had time to dedicate to this assignment. I also need to study for a test over three chapters on Monday. I don't know when I will study for that since I am going to Waynesville for Saturday and Sunday. In public speaking, I have a speech to do on Wednesday. I am terrified of public speaker and this is going to be our toughest speech so far. I need to retype my outline, do my note cards, and practice. I also probably have a quiz due on Wednesday for that class. In spanish, I have 6 workbook pages due on Wednesday. I also have an assignment due from my book. In composition, I need to catch up on these journal entries and figure out when my revision of my essay is due. Tomorrow I have a lot to do. I need to pick up my birth control, do laundry, do loads of homework, work out at 8:30 in the morning, and try to find some time to relax.

Which should I do?

I need to make a decision. It's far from a fun decision. Actually, it is about as lame as you can get. I need to decide which homework I'm going to do and on which day. The only thing that needs to for sure get done is an outline for speech four in public speaking class. I have to have it done by tomorrow night because on Monday it is due. No exceptions. That means I need to do all my other homework assignments that are also due on Monday tonight. I already finished my chapter fourteen quiz for public speaking already. There is one thing off my list. I need to revise my paper or at least start it so I can have all the time I need to do that outline. The outline is important because that is my only class that I have a B in and I hate it. I also have a huge fifteen page paper/project due in Sociology on April 10. I still need to do my three page summary. It won't be bad once I get started but it is really tough to start because it's a lot of abstract thinking. I'm definitely procrastinating on that one. It's going to take a lot of thinking and I am too worn out for that tonight so I think I'm going to plan on doing that on Tuesday. I'm off Tuesday and I'm going to dedicate that day for sociology. I have a lot to do on Tuesday. I work out at 8:30, which is good so I will be up early. I need to get birth control and do laundry. My laundry is way over due. I finished my Spanish homework a little earlier so I'm ahead on that class. It's nice to feel relaxed. I am so stressed right now. No going out for me!

day by day

I was trying to think of a good topic to write about but nothing sounded tempting. I even remembered to glance at the sheet we did at the beginning of the semester. The sheet was a million of different topics from about 24 different areas. How could I not find something. Nothing sounded appealing so I just chose to write a little about my day. To start off with, I will say that it is Saturday, March the fourth. I went to bed last night around midnight so I could have eight hours of sleep. I'm into this whole sleeping thing lately. That is probably because last semester I had little to no sleep. I was a mess so I changed that around this semester. I had to wake up this morning at eight o clock because at nine I had to be at work. I got a seven hour shift today at MaMa Jeans. I worked from nine till four. This was an awesome shift. I love when I don't have to close. The shift goes much faster when you come in early. The day started off awesome because I got to work with my favorite employee. Her name is Allison, too. We chit chatted and checked people out at the register. My register schedule was nine to eleven then two to four, which is nice also. The day was steady until all hell broke lose. The line went crazy and the credit card machine stopped working. My CAM, which is our system froze up. I had very nice customers that were patient though. I got off at four and then drove over to the YMCA. I ran on the tread mile to burn 200 calories and then did some ab work outs. After the gym, I went tanning and got ready. My dad was going to take me out to dinner since he was in town. After dinner, I did some homework and met up with my best friend from Waynesville. We just went to the mall and talked. It was a good day.

working out

Starting this semester, I have been on a health streak. I still mess up a lot and eat bad but for the most part it is like night and day. I joined the YMCA and starting working out almost every single night since I've joined. I just realised at semester that I needed to make a change. I had done it. I had gained the freshman fifteen. Before I had joined the YMCA, I just would drive all the way to my friends apartment across Springfield just to run on the treadmile or I would try to squeeze in a work out after my classes and before work. I would go to work sweaty and gross but I didn't care because I knew I was doing better for my body. Not only was I doing better by exercising but also my diet was much better. I no longer went out and drank every night. We didn't go to Cheddars every day of the week. Well, actually I havn't went out to eat at all this semester except for when my family comes to see me in Springfield. I quit eating junk like chocolate. I stopped getting fast food. The closest thing to fast food that I get is Subway and I get that on wheat bread with vegetables. I eat so much fiber. I did a cleanse which helped me a lot. After my cleanse, I started eatin the fiber. I buy fruits and vegetables every time that I work at MaMa Jean's. I don't drink any soday what so ever. I also don't drink the juices that are full of fructose corn syrup and what not. I have already lost six pounds. Six pounds has taken a while to come off but it is worth it to do it the healthy way. I start meeting with my personal trainer on Tuesday so that will be another step. I just want to look better for summer. I want to feel healthy. I want to keep this up and cut down a little less on the crap I eat. It's just hard to change my diet. The exercising isn't much of a problem.

Love

Boys used to be the last thing on my mind. I'm not a "mushy" type at all. I'm not the type that is anti love either though. Some people hate when they see couples showing PDA (public display of affection) but I don't care. Couples can do what they want. A lot of people also are jealous of relationships. I wasn't jealous nor cared about others business. I don't care for roses and chocolate and being taken out for dinner. I like to pay for my part of the meal and my movie ticket. I don't need to be pampered and very low maintenance. The only thing that I can be high maintenance about is that I have to feel like I am cared about. I have to have a good night call every night and I have to be seen when possible. Sex is not a big thing to me either. I think that is the bases of a lot of people relationships. In my opinion, I think that is lust not love. Love is being able to just enjoy each others company no matter what you are doing. I enjoy just sitting on the couch talking about random things through out the day much more then receiving material things. Money is not an issue to me at this point in time. I hate when girls are so angry just because they didn't get what they wanted for Valentines Day. Get a life. Don't spend so much time building up anger. Use that time to enjoy each others company and laugh about nothing. Even though I have never been the relationship type, I believe my relationship with my boyfriend is going just fine even though he doesn't have the money to pick me up and take me out. He doesn't even have a car for that matter anymore. That's not his fault that his family is not wealthy. He makes me happy and that bothers me that girls can get mad about something as petty as money. All I care about is if he proves that he cares and can make me happy. He makes me laugh and smile constantly and that is why I feel that I love him.