Favorite Dish

I love breakfast foods. It's a tough decision between biscuits and gravy, chocolate chip pancakes, and a bacon and cheese omelet. Even though I have been trying to be good and haven't had any of these in a long time, I would say the one that gets my mouth drooling the most would be an ooey gooey bacon and cheese omelet. Cheese and eggs are horrible for you but so delicious. I never have made it but I can most certainly eat it. I love eggs, bacon and cheese. I like it plain and just like that. I don't really like peppers or onions. I can do salt and pepper but that is about it on the add-ons. I love it when it is nice and warm, right out off the skillet. Oh, you can certainly chop up some potatoes and put those in there.

I have never made this dish so I'm not sure on how to prepare it exactly. I don't know the oven settings or exactly how many eggs most people use but I'm going to guess. You will need to get your ingredients. Your ingredients for my perfect omelet would be eggs, bacon, maybe sausage, potatoes, pepper, salt, and that is about it. You will need to have three skillets going. I say three because I am very impatient and want it done fast. I will need my mom and dad's assistance, haha. One will be in charge of frying the egg. One will be in charge of frying the bacon and sausage. One will be in charge of cutting and frying the potato. Once, everything is cooked perfectly, we can now put it together. Someone should get the spatula and start throwing the meat and potatoes in. I am in charge of the cheese because there is a limit of too much and too little cheese. For omelets, I like to use shredded cheese over the squares. Then I wait about five minutes for the cheese to melt and the omelet to cool off. I can then grab my fork and knife and get ready to take over. I am pretty much starving now. Thanks a lot to this essay.

Lucky for me. Kayla buys the uncrustable peanut butter and jelly. Grape jelly is the choice of course. I will locate myself in front of the fridge and grab the fridge door. I then will pull the door open and grab the packaged uncrustable. I will then sit the sandwhich on the coffee table and let the sandwhich thaw for twenty minutes. After I let it sit, I then will rip open the plastic package and take a bite. :)

simple things

It is completely true when people say that it is the little things in life that mean the most. A simple smile can brighten your whole day. A simple hug can go a long way to make you feel whole again. A simple five minute break can pull you back together so that you are no longer a mess and can cope. A simple chocolate chip can take care of your chocolate craving so you don't have to eat a whole piece of double chocolate fattening cake. You see, little things go a long way to make people happy. The biggest little thing that has happened to me occurred yesterday while I was at work. I have been trying to lose weight basically since this semester began. I haven't seem many results. My diet is totally different and I am eating way better. I even joined the YMCA and am paying about thirty dollars a month for that. I go as much as possible. I also got a personal trainer. His name is Ernie Moore and I payed close to a hundred dollars for him. I go to him for an hour three days a week for six weeks. Well, I wasn't feeling like I was losing weight and I wasn't getting any feedback. It was starting to bother me. Well, yesterday at work Heather, a girl I normally don't talk to much, approached me. She said, "Wow! You look awesome! What have you been doing to lose weight!" Just that one comment made me turn my whole outlook around. I now feel that this work has payed off and I felt good about myself. That little comment makes me want to pursue what I have been doing and to work harder. That little comment got me back on track and seriously made my day. I still smile when I think about what she said. She won't know how much those few words meant to me and made an impact on me. Little things can do a lot.

It happened

In my last blog I wrote about Patrick Clegg. Patrick Clegg was the baseball player from Waynesville that got hit by a pitch at Lebanon on Tuesday night. It was a freak accident and the ball hit Patrick right under his helmet so it struck his brain stem. He was instantly air vacated to St. Johns Hospital here in Springfield. It breaks my heart to even think about this. But the sixteen year old boy was pronounced brain dead last night. He is donating his organs today. I hate this. I haven't talked to him for a few years besides "hellos" in the hallway but I still knew him. He was fun kid. He was full of life and a bit of a trouble maker but that gave him personality. All the schools among the area, especially Lebanon, are being very caring for the family's situation. One of the saddest things that I heard Patrick's dad say was how proud he was for doing baseball and staying out of trouble. The high school junior was getting scholarships from college. The scholarships were going to be the only way for him to have college in his future. My heart also goes out to the pitcher that threw the ball. He should not feel guilty at all because it was definitely unintentional but it would be hard not to feel guilt. I hope he can learn that it was not his fault and just a freak accident. I don't think that I will be able to go to Patrick's funeral because of work but I wish I could be there. I just hate when people die young. I can't imagine my parents going to my funeral. I hope the Clegg family are able to deal with this with the support of family, friends, others, and God. It brings me to tears every time I think about it and to think, tonight would be his first prom.

Praying for Patrick

I just got done from crying. I watched this video from KY3.com to see what was said about Patrick. Patrick Clegg is a sixteen year old junior at Waynesville High, the school that I am from. On Tuesday night, a freak accident happened. Patrick was playing the sport he loved, baseball. They had a game against Lebanon. The pitcher through a pitch that was going to hit him so he did what he was told to do; spin around. He spun around hoping the ball would hit him in the helmet or his back. It did the unthinkable. It hit him in that inch under his helmet and before his back. It got him in the neck, striking his brain stem. He instantly collapsed and the helicopter took him to St.Johns here in Springfield. Things are not looking good at all. They put him in an induced coma and is now on life support. They pulled the plug yesterday for about ten minutes to see if his brain or lungs had any response. His diaphragm moved but they realized that he had only ten percent of his brain cells left. He is now back on life support and he looks bad. People who saw him said that he can't even close his eyes. I was told today that they are thinking about taking him off life support today. If he does pull through he is more then likely going to just be a vegetable and that is something nobody wants for their sun. My heart goes out to his family and his girlfriend. I know how it is. My heart also goes out to the Lebanon pitcher because it wasn't his fault but I'm sure he is beating his self up about it. No one plans for this to happen. I hope a miracle can happen today. I will be praying for you, Patrick. Be strong.

weather

Today is basically the best weather EVER in my opinion. It's about 84 degrees and it feels amazing. It is not too hot and not too cold, just right. It amazing. It's crazy how weather can change your mood so much. I feel so productive today. This weather makes me wanna do good for myself. I went to class then my room mate, Kayla, and I went and looked at apartments. We thought that we fell in love with an apartment yesterday but we still wanted to look. The other apartment was perfect location but the lady was pretty much a jerk. We decided since it was beautiful out and we wanted to look more just in case there was somethin else that caught our attention. We decided to look at another TLC property because those are the nicest. It is really far out on the north side but it was the best price,size, and paid for a lot. That is the new favorite. We found another awesome one but it is only for peole of twenty one years or older. They were really nice but jerks for that! But the new choice is Watermill Park. I just want to find an apartment now and put the deposit down so I know I have one and don't have to stress. I stress way too much as it is. Now we are thinking about working out because we have been really healthy today and want to keep the trend going. I really need to do homework though. I have quite a bit and one is a huge assignment. I hate that. Public speaking is kicking my butt. But after my speech on Monday, I am officially done with public speaking. It is my only B and I hate it. I don't think I can really get a A or C in that class either way so it seems pointless. But I'm going to do my best to do well in that class.

eventful little day

First off, today is supposed to be the excitement of my week. I am finally off completely. I am off from not only school, but work also. I have been loaded with homework and hours at work so I needed this. It started off amazing. I woke up bright and early at eight o clock. I went to my work out with Ernie. Only two other girls showed up but it was fine anyway. We did the dirty five hundred. The dirty five hundred is where we did five sets of one hundred ab work outs. I actually did the best out of the other two girls there which was nice. I am sure that I will be feeling that tomorrow morning for sure but right now I feel fine. After my work out, my mom calls me and tells me that she is in Strafford and about to get on sixty-five. I got so excited because I love my mom to death. I rush home and change. She picks me up from my apartment and we go to the mall. We mainly do shopping for my brother's birthday. I did get some jeans I have been eyeing for a while and two tank top shirts. My mom gets some amazing but expensive make up from Clinique. We are very hungry by now and get lunch at Ruby Tuesdays. Lunch was good and it is now time for my mom to head home. I go home and put my laundry in the washer. While my clothes are in the washer, Kayla and I meet up with our friends to look at some duplexes. It was like a sign from God. Even though the duplex's were out of our league, we looked at the apartments next door and fell in love. I would have never found that perfect place if it wasn't for joining our friends. After that, I put my clothes in the dryer and go see my boyfriend. We got in a big fight which is odd since I was having a great day. I'm sure things will blow over though. They always do. Now I am starting my homework and then I plan on tanning and working out. When I am done working out, I will probably do more homework and get ready for bed.

What am I excited for?

What am I excited for? The main thing that I am excited for is VACATION. I can not wait to be in Florida for a week just laying out on the beach and listening to the waves crashing on the shore. I can not wait to be completely off work for five whole days. I am excited to have a chance to clear my head and not worry about anything besides what I am going to eat for dinner. The main thing that I am excited for is summer for general. I honestly do not think that I will be able to honestly relax until summer. Right now I have to stress about working, working out, friends, family, and school. My body and mind is wearing down. Even though I will still have to work a lot and take two classes during the summer, it will seem like nothing compared to what I am doing now. The most recent thing that I am excited about though is Tuesday. The main reason is that I am finally off. I have no school or work. It starts off awesome because I get to meet with my personal trainer and work out. I need to work out. I feel lazy because I have not had a chance to work out and on Saturday when I went to the work out, it was canceled. Another huge reason that I am excited for Tuesday is that my mom is coming to see me. My mom and I are seriously best friends. We are going to go shopping and then we are going to grab lunch so by the time that she leaves me, I can still get what I need done. I need to start my outline for public speaking and do laundry. Basically, I am excited that I have things to look forward to and things are looking brighter.

Relieved

During the past semester, I have thought about one thing and one thing only about my sociology test. That one thing is my research project journal. It is worth more then half of our grades. I had to do well on that to get the grade that I wanted in the class. I really wanted an A so I could keep my spot on the Dean's list. Well, I have been stressing about this paper for a couple months now and it was finally due on April 10. This project consisted of us doing at least eight volunteer hours at a nonprofit organization. I did mine at the YMCA. After we did our eight hours. we then had to write a paper telling about hour experiences and connecting them with the sociological perspective. My paper ended up being thirteen pages. That is a huge paper to me and I'm not used to writing that much. I was pretty nervous how tough she would grade but I was pretty sure that I would get a decent grade. In my opinion, I thought it was pretty well written. Well today, I went into my sociology class to see that is was canceled but she got me and told me to wait. I ended up getting my paper today. I looked down to see 110 out of 105. I was ecstatic. I got the highest grade in the class. I got all my points plus five. This is a huge relief, especially since I already have a A in the class by doing well on the tests. In her class there is no homework, just tests and this huge assignment. I can now start to calm down and relax in her class. All I need to do now is keep doing what I'm doing and study for her tests and I will be alright. Today is a good day.

The Future

The future is one thing I don't especially like thinking about. I have enough stress as it is so I don't feel the need to add another stresser on my shoulders. I wish I could just live day by day instead of worrying about what is to come next. I don't know what I would do if I wasn't organized. The main subject that stresses me out about the future is what I want to do as an occupation when I graduate. Right now my major is education. I want to be an elementary teacher. I bounce around with what age I want to teach and the pro's and con's of each. I then think I would also like to do something with business because I was always the top in my marketing classes in high school. But then I bounce off more ideas. My favorite subjects in school are sociology and psychology. I just don't know what occupations I could do that I would like doing for the rest of my life. I don't want to switch occupations. I want to pick one and keep one. I want to do it so I can retire early with good money. I would love to be a secretary at a high school because I actually love busy work like doing attendance and things like that. I think they don't make as much money though. I am planning on moving back to Waynesville, where I grew up. I loved growing up there and I think it is a great area to start a family. I also use that as the basis of my occupation. There is not a huge variety of choices in Waynesville. There is teaching, owning a business, being an engineer on the army base, or getting a minimum wage job. The last option is not a choice really. I think teaching would be ideal but I have no experience with children so I am nervous about that. I also think it would be the funnest to teach. I wouldn't mind being a speech therapist or reading therapist because I know waynesville school's are always needing those but my speech isn't the best. I was thinking about being a nutritionist because I am very interested in nutrition. I don't know. I should be able to figure something out in the next three years of my life.

blank

You ever wake up in the morning and just have that blank feeling? I did today. I woke up feeling emotionless. I just knew I had things to do. I woke up at eight this morning and threw on some close and went to Ernie's gym and got our work out. It was boxing. I'm not a big fan of boxing but that is probably just because I am not very good at it. It's really hard from me and I hate the fact of wearing some one's old gloves and wrist wraps. I can still smell that horrible stench. I then have to go back to my apartment. I was exhausted and had all the plans of getting some of the huge homework assignments that I have due on Monday. That didn't work out as planned. I got back and instead lied down thinking I might just get a quick twenty minute power nap. Well, that power nap turned into a couple hours. I woke up and was already stressed. Why didn't I get anything done? I still needed to take my boyfriend back to the dorms before I left for my eight hour shift. I am about burnt out from working. Working full time is not my thing. I'm into the whole twenty-four hours thing. I hope they hire another cashier and it can be like that because all of the cashiers agree that we want less hours. The cashiers at my work are all full time students. After work, the new plan is to do the homework that I was supposed to do earlier. I was planning on starting my english paper or my public speaking outline but instead I have to do a different english assignment that I put off that is due tomorrow. I am so ready for summer. Even though my summer will probably be really busy, It will still be nice to not have to drive to campus and just take two online classes. Plus, summer is just an awesome and happy time. I'm mostly ready for our vacation to Florida so I can completely relax with nothing in my way.

Eggheads vs. Smarties

I definately chose the wrong side of the arguement. Hershey's honestly doesn't have much benificial about their chocolate besides the fact that the chocolate is tasty. They use palm oil. Palm oil is bad for hour enviroment. There is nothing nutritional coming out of the Hershey's milk chocolate egg's. If it was atleast dark chocolate, we could find some possitives, such as antioxidants. The chocolate can melt. It does nothing good for your body. Who would have thought that eating a certain candy from the teacher's basket would have put me in this delima. I have looked over about ten different websites and have found no advantages to eating milk chocolate then smarties. Smarties is also not good for you in any way. Pretty much all candy is not going to benifit your health. I guess if we were going to try to get points, we could talk about how there is three grams of protien per serving and eight percent of calcium in each serving. I can honestly say I have never thought about this issue nor have I ever thought about writing about this issue. I kind of like it. It's random. Oh, I found something else. The egg's are made twelve percent with milk. Your body needs dairy. We have a little more variety in ingredients while smarties are basically just compressed sugar with UNnatural flovorings. There has been research that eating chocolate before a test will actually improve test grades. I think that is the same with any candy but since I can't find any supporting information, I am going to use that for my arguement. Chocolate is supposed to improve memory. Chocolate makes better gift's. There is a reason why people don't give out Smarties heart's for valentines day. The eggs also contain carbs which can be broken down into energy. Even though none of these facts are a reliable reason why one candy is better then the other, i would chose the egg. It is just simply better. The end.

working that nine to five

As you can probably tell from my title, I worked a nine to five shift at Mama Jean's today. That is my absolute favorite shift. It forces me to get up earlier and still have the day ahead of me. I actually have a chance to catch up on life when I get off work at five. Today after work, I came straight home and talked to my room mate, Kayla. We decided we wanted to go to the YMCA to work out and swim so we changed and got our bathing suits together and such. Before we worked out, we ran by Staples and got her money. Long story short, Staples screwed her over by over charging for a computer repair and not fixing it in the first place. After we got her money, we ran by Rue 21 because I really wanted this yellow shirt that I have been looking at. I never get a chance to shop because I am so busy with work and school. I got the shirt and then we were on the way to the gym. I mostly ran on the track at the gym. After I was tired of running, I started doing ab work outs. We decided after that we would insanely sweat in the steam room and go to the pool. We left the gym at about nine. Now, I'm doing what I do best-procrastinating. I need to get this homework done though because I have to go to sleep early. I'm already exhausted but I also have to wake up at seven in the morning because of Ernie's work out. I haven't woken up that early since high school. I am not looking forward to it because it's with a different work out group. After I work out, I immediately have to get ready for school. I get done with school at about two then I go straight to work a half hour later. I will then have to close at work. I have a busy life this week. Let's just say that I am totally ready for summer. Only a couple more weeks of this craziness.

What are you passionate about?

What am I passionate about? I am not passionate about anything of the sort of music or fashion. I am passionate about happiness and seeing people smile and laugh. I am passionate about making my family happy. I am passionate about making my boyfriend and very close friends happy. Oh, I almost forgot. One concrete term that I am passionate about is food. I am in love with food. It's actually pretty ridiculous how obsessed with food I am. It's kind of sad. It's honestly the first thing I think about when I wake up. What am I going to eat today? I am only going to eat 1500 calories. What should I have for breakfast. I can only eat on break at work and not on the register. For example, I have already realized that I won't have a chance to eat before work because I get out of class at two and have to be at work thirty minutes later. That is good for me though because if I have the chance to go home in between time, I will eat about 300 calories worth. I love all kinds of food. I love fruits, bread, certain vegetables, soups, yogurt, and basically anything you can imagine. Since I started working at Mama Jean's, I have tried so many different types of foods that I would never have tried before. I didn't even know about certain vegetables that I rang up. That was pretty embarrassing. We have an awesome cook at my work so that is the reason for me trying different things. I would probably be pretty skinny if I wasn't so passionate about food. I work out a lot. I also eat a lot. If I didn't work out, I would probably be the woman that is so obese that she can't even roll out of bed. It's ridiculous how difficult it is for me to cut down on calories. It's one of those things that I constantly have to think about. If I had an amazing metabolism I would eat so much and would be so happy. My happiness and food obsession pretty much go hand in hand. Those are the two things that I am passionate about.

What is a place?

We were told to run some ideas through our head about places that had a significant importance in our life. I thought for a good half an hour. Once I started thinking, idea's started popping up but it took a while for the brain to start flowing with ideas. My first idea was to write about my grandma's house. I loved spending time there but the main reason was because of Christmas. We would have our whole family down and the food was just amazing. Good times, good times. I then thought about the river. My parents, brother, and I would always go to the Big Piney River by my house in Devils Elbow. We would basically spend our whole summer down there. We would bring our dog, make lunch, float down the river, lay out, relax, and just have a good time. The next option I thought about was Vacations. The first one that came to my head was last summer when we went to Gulf Shores, Alabama. It was the second time that I have been there and it was my favorite vacation. We stayed at a nice house on the beach. Then I thought about when we went to Tacoma, Washington. It was about twenty minutes from Seattle and we went to a lot of historical places and awesome aquariums. Another vacation that I thought about was Chicago. That was the funnest to look at. There was so much going on. It was fast paced and beautiful at night. I then thought about where most of our family vacations were at, Pomme De Terre. It's a river where my aunt's both have a home there and we spend a lot of our time at during the summer. We have annual float trips every July where about thirty of us in the family float and hang out on the river. It's a major trip in our family. We float for about two day's straight and camp out while the adults drink at night. After thinking about my choices, I decided my favorite place with the most memories was Christmas at my grandparent's house in Waynesville, Missouri. After thinking, I decided the most significant year was probably when I was 15 year's old. That is the place I wanted to write about.

Easter Weekend

My Easter weekend turned out amazing. We didn’t do anything spectacular and that’s how I like it. It was low key and laid back. I didn’t see any of my friends, just my family. I hung out with my best friend, my mom, for the majority of course. I saw my grandparents on both sides of the family. Well, just my grandpa on my mom’s side of the family because my grandma has passed away. I got the grandparents done with on Saturday because I didn’t know how long I would be able to stay on Sunday. I have a lot of homework to do and wanted to get back at least in the daylight. On Saturday, I left straight from my work out in Springfield and headed home. I got home at about 10:45 A.M. so that was perfect. I normally don’t even wake up till that time so it was nice to still have the day ahead to do whatever I wanted. I had planned to see friends but I really didn’t get much of a chance which was fine with me. As soon as I got home, my mom was ready to do things. She didn’t have a schedule for us this time but we decided to see the grandparents and then we went home to rest. After we rested for a while, we then decided to go by Rolla and see the sales at JC Penney. We both got some things and had a lot of fun. We picked up Subway for us and my grandpa so we got supper done with. Next, we decided to go to Walmart and get a few essentials. We ended up getting home at about 8 and layed down. On Easter, my parents and I went to Cracker Barrel and had an awesome dinner. Now, it’s about time for me to think about heading home. It was a good day.

Sore

Man, I was so sore yesterday. This personal trainer thing is kicking my butt. On Saturday morning, I went into my work out already feeling insanely sore. Friday I went to school and work very sore from my Thursday work out. Ernie has an awesome work out but it makes you sore. You can guarantee it. After my first work out, my abs and arms were the body parts that were sore. After my second work out, my legs were the thing sore. My legs have never been that sore, which is weird considering I played soccer all my life and had some tough leg work outs. On Friday, I could barely walk at all so it was very difficult to go up three flights of stairs to my first class. The railing on the side of the stairs became my best friend. I thought my legs would get loosened up by the time that I went to work. They didn’t. When I was at work, it was quite obvious that I was sore. I got asked numerous times why I was walking so awkwardly. I couldn’t even imagine going to Saturday morning’s work out with my legs acting like this. I drank so much water on Friday, hoping that would help resolve the problem. I also took a hot bath and soaked my legs. I didn’t know what I should do to ease the soreness. I eventually decided that I should just lie down and go to bed early and pray by morning they would be ready for another hard work out. I was still extremely sore when I woke up but I was paying for this work out so I was going to go. Ernie could tell I was sore and was easy on me for the most part. We had another tough work out but without the use of legs. I woke up today, on Sunday, and they are still sore but much better. I am thankful for that and ready for my next work out tomorrow morning. I wonder which part of my body is next.

It's like I'm a totally different person

I blame it on the birth control! I have been taking birth control for years now. I take it for my acne. I'm sure everyone is like "suuuuure" but it's true. I had horible acne all through middle school and freshman year. I tried everything. I tried every possible pill out there. I tried every possible face cleaning set, such as proactive. Nothing seemed to help my horrible complextion. I made an appoitment with my doctor and I was surprised when she told me I should try birth conrol because hormones have a lot to do with acne. It worked almost immediatly and I have been taking it since. Well my prescription ended a couple months ago and I needed to make an appoitment to get more. I called Planned Parenthood and asked about getting a papsmire. I was pleased to hear that I didn't need to get one until I was twenty one. I just got to go there and get a prescription for a year. They put me on a different type of birth control and I think it is really playing a game with my emotions. My room mate told me she used to take it and it made here really emotional. I'm not too emotional but I am definately more moody. I never want to go out anymore and I always want to sleep. I yell at my boyfriend about little things then instantly apologize because I realize that he has done nothing wrong. I am a totally different person. I just like to sleep, work out, and relax. I feel bad bailing out on my friends all the time because I just don't feel like going out. It also doesn't help the situation at all that I work full time, go to school full time, and have to wake up early every day for my work out and school. I also am trying to lose weight, which means no alcohol for me. I don't think I'm turning into a bad person, just someone who likes to be alone a lot more. I just hate that I kind of keep myself aways from friends. I miss them. I just am not into the same scene, I guess.

day by day

I wake up every day with a different outlook on life. My mood changes about fifty times a day. I'm pretty much just a roller coaster. I am just so rejuvinated and relaxed that I finally got my life back together yesterday. I did all my chores and homework that I have been needing to get done. I needed that day off more then anything at this point in my life. Today, I woke up a little tired from the busy previous day but I also felt calm and glad that I didn't have to rush and finish any homework. One surprise when I woke up was how SORE I was. My abs hurt so bad. Whenever I cough, they just cramp. My back and arms are also pretty sore. I'm glad they are so though because now I feel like I actually did something at my first work out. Today, I am already done with an easy day of classes. I am also relieved that I didn't have to do my speech today even though I was prepared. Now, I am about to head to work. I work from three to close. I am closing with Allison and she is my favorite cashier so I am excited about that. After that I am rushing straight home to meet Kayla and then we are going to head to the YMCA and do some cardio on the treadmile and then sweat our butt's off in the steam room. It is so relaxing. After the workout, I will probably just do homework and stay home for the night. I am into the whole sleeping at night and relaxing thing lately. I am basically so ready to head home Saturday morning after my work out. I miss my family already and can't wait to come home for Easter. I always have a good time with family and love the country life and miss it. Basically, I am just extremely happy with my life and want to keep it this way.

awesome day

Today has been the absolute best day that I have had in a long time. It was a definite well needed day off. I have been so stressed and over worked. I'm not just overworked at Mama Jeans but also school. Today was perfect. I woke up from a good night's sleep at eight this morning. I instantly had to get up and begin my day. I went to my first day with my personal trainer at 8:30. His work out was tough but good. After the work out, I was rejuvenated. I got straight to my homework. I got a lot done. That was a huge weight taken off my shoulders. After I did most of my homework, I just waited for my room mate to get up so we could go to the YMCA and work out and go into the steam room. We went to the gym at about one. By the time we left there, my mom called and said she was coming to Springfield. My mom and I are extremely close so I was ecstatic. We had a great day. We did some jobs then went and ate at my favorite restaurant, Cheddars. We ordered our usuals and it was good as usual. Then we went by the mall and I got her some moisturizer from Clinique and she got me some spray from Victoria Secret. Then we went to Walmart and we got groceries. After we got groceries, we did some of my laundry. I got a lot done and it was great. I feel like I finally achieved all my goals. It put me in a great mood. It was a great visit with my mom. I can't wait to go home Saturday for Easter and see my family for two days. I am about to finish the rest of my homework and practice my speech. I'm also excited to see my boyfriend. It's been a couple days since we have seen each other and I miss him. I just feel like I finally got my life put back together today and it feels awesome.

Day One

The day finally came. It was time for my first work out with Ernie, my personal trainer. I went to bed at midnight last night so I would be able to wake up easy at eight in the morning. I did well. I got up at eight, changed, and got ready for my work out. I was a little sad to see that my time of the month started but luckily I wasn't cramping too horribly. I took some midol. I then realized I had never drove to his gym before. I was praying that I remembered the directions given to me. I did. I took a right on Enterprise and looked up to see a huge sign. It read Ernie's Gym. The first step of getting up on time was completed. The second step of getting to the place on time was completed also. I was up to a good start. I had a warm welcome by Ernie and my favorite employee, Allison. Ernie is very energetic, enthusiastic, and fun. I was excited. We first got measured. We were measured on our chest, hips, and butt. I don't think the measurements were too accurate but that's okay. The whole point is to get healthier and fell better. The work out was not like I had planned but it was good. I thought it would be a cardiovascular sort of work out. It wasn't at all. It was fast pace and didn't have much of a break but it was all strength training and muscle toning. We did a lot of push ups and sit ups. My abs and arms are definitely going to be sore. I felt good afterwards and was glad I still have the whole day to get things done. Normally, I wake up at about eleven. This was a nice feeling. I felt productive. I have already finished most of my homework I have been stressing about. As for the rest of the day, I plan to work out again, tan, practice my speech for public speaking, write another journal, and finish my sociology paper. It will be a busy day but a productive day. I also might meet up with a old friend that goes to Drury. We are going to stop by Hilcrest and watch our high school soccer team play. I'm excited for the day.

stressed out !

Wow! I have been so stressed out. The only thing keeping me sane is the gym. After I get a good work out I am able to relax and calm my nerves. I am not stressed about money or work anymore. I am a little stressed about my weight. I could definitely lose some weight but that is beside the point. The top of my stress list is definitely homework. Homework has consumed my life and I still feel I am not at a point where I can actually relax. I just feel like I can not catch up on my homework and so much is due this week. I have homework to do in every single class. I could go through my schedule and pick out what is due in each class to make life easier. In sociology, I have a 15 page paper due on Friday. I only have three pages left but those pages are being done last for a reason. They require a lot of thought and I just have not had time to dedicate to this assignment. I also need to study for a test over three chapters on Monday. I don't know when I will study for that since I am going to Waynesville for Saturday and Sunday. In public speaking, I have a speech to do on Wednesday. I am terrified of public speaker and this is going to be our toughest speech so far. I need to retype my outline, do my note cards, and practice. I also probably have a quiz due on Wednesday for that class. In spanish, I have 6 workbook pages due on Wednesday. I also have an assignment due from my book. In composition, I need to catch up on these journal entries and figure out when my revision of my essay is due. Tomorrow I have a lot to do. I need to pick up my birth control, do laundry, do loads of homework, work out at 8:30 in the morning, and try to find some time to relax.

Which should I do?

I need to make a decision. It's far from a fun decision. Actually, it is about as lame as you can get. I need to decide which homework I'm going to do and on which day. The only thing that needs to for sure get done is an outline for speech four in public speaking class. I have to have it done by tomorrow night because on Monday it is due. No exceptions. That means I need to do all my other homework assignments that are also due on Monday tonight. I already finished my chapter fourteen quiz for public speaking already. There is one thing off my list. I need to revise my paper or at least start it so I can have all the time I need to do that outline. The outline is important because that is my only class that I have a B in and I hate it. I also have a huge fifteen page paper/project due in Sociology on April 10. I still need to do my three page summary. It won't be bad once I get started but it is really tough to start because it's a lot of abstract thinking. I'm definitely procrastinating on that one. It's going to take a lot of thinking and I am too worn out for that tonight so I think I'm going to plan on doing that on Tuesday. I'm off Tuesday and I'm going to dedicate that day for sociology. I have a lot to do on Tuesday. I work out at 8:30, which is good so I will be up early. I need to get birth control and do laundry. My laundry is way over due. I finished my Spanish homework a little earlier so I'm ahead on that class. It's nice to feel relaxed. I am so stressed right now. No going out for me!

day by day

I was trying to think of a good topic to write about but nothing sounded tempting. I even remembered to glance at the sheet we did at the beginning of the semester. The sheet was a million of different topics from about 24 different areas. How could I not find something. Nothing sounded appealing so I just chose to write a little about my day. To start off with, I will say that it is Saturday, March the fourth. I went to bed last night around midnight so I could have eight hours of sleep. I'm into this whole sleeping thing lately. That is probably because last semester I had little to no sleep. I was a mess so I changed that around this semester. I had to wake up this morning at eight o clock because at nine I had to be at work. I got a seven hour shift today at MaMa Jeans. I worked from nine till four. This was an awesome shift. I love when I don't have to close. The shift goes much faster when you come in early. The day started off awesome because I got to work with my favorite employee. Her name is Allison, too. We chit chatted and checked people out at the register. My register schedule was nine to eleven then two to four, which is nice also. The day was steady until all hell broke lose. The line went crazy and the credit card machine stopped working. My CAM, which is our system froze up. I had very nice customers that were patient though. I got off at four and then drove over to the YMCA. I ran on the tread mile to burn 200 calories and then did some ab work outs. After the gym, I went tanning and got ready. My dad was going to take me out to dinner since he was in town. After dinner, I did some homework and met up with my best friend from Waynesville. We just went to the mall and talked. It was a good day.

working out

Starting this semester, I have been on a health streak. I still mess up a lot and eat bad but for the most part it is like night and day. I joined the YMCA and starting working out almost every single night since I've joined. I just realised at semester that I needed to make a change. I had done it. I had gained the freshman fifteen. Before I had joined the YMCA, I just would drive all the way to my friends apartment across Springfield just to run on the treadmile or I would try to squeeze in a work out after my classes and before work. I would go to work sweaty and gross but I didn't care because I knew I was doing better for my body. Not only was I doing better by exercising but also my diet was much better. I no longer went out and drank every night. We didn't go to Cheddars every day of the week. Well, actually I havn't went out to eat at all this semester except for when my family comes to see me in Springfield. I quit eating junk like chocolate. I stopped getting fast food. The closest thing to fast food that I get is Subway and I get that on wheat bread with vegetables. I eat so much fiber. I did a cleanse which helped me a lot. After my cleanse, I started eatin the fiber. I buy fruits and vegetables every time that I work at MaMa Jean's. I don't drink any soday what so ever. I also don't drink the juices that are full of fructose corn syrup and what not. I have already lost six pounds. Six pounds has taken a while to come off but it is worth it to do it the healthy way. I start meeting with my personal trainer on Tuesday so that will be another step. I just want to look better for summer. I want to feel healthy. I want to keep this up and cut down a little less on the crap I eat. It's just hard to change my diet. The exercising isn't much of a problem.

Love

Boys used to be the last thing on my mind. I'm not a "mushy" type at all. I'm not the type that is anti love either though. Some people hate when they see couples showing PDA (public display of affection) but I don't care. Couples can do what they want. A lot of people also are jealous of relationships. I wasn't jealous nor cared about others business. I don't care for roses and chocolate and being taken out for dinner. I like to pay for my part of the meal and my movie ticket. I don't need to be pampered and very low maintenance. The only thing that I can be high maintenance about is that I have to feel like I am cared about. I have to have a good night call every night and I have to be seen when possible. Sex is not a big thing to me either. I think that is the bases of a lot of people relationships. In my opinion, I think that is lust not love. Love is being able to just enjoy each others company no matter what you are doing. I enjoy just sitting on the couch talking about random things through out the day much more then receiving material things. Money is not an issue to me at this point in time. I hate when girls are so angry just because they didn't get what they wanted for Valentines Day. Get a life. Don't spend so much time building up anger. Use that time to enjoy each others company and laugh about nothing. Even though I have never been the relationship type, I believe my relationship with my boyfriend is going just fine even though he doesn't have the money to pick me up and take me out. He doesn't even have a car for that matter anymore. That's not his fault that his family is not wealthy. He makes me happy and that bothers me that girls can get mad about something as petty as money. All I care about is if he proves that he cares and can make me happy. He makes me laugh and smile constantly and that is why I feel that I love him.